What a week how shall i start, I'll try from where i left off. Having shown Mr Caring my blog his response was very caring and mature however it has all seemed to go dwn hill from there. He phoned me whilst i was at work and i missed the call so i txted him back later to see if he wanted to meet up later as summer has arrived however i didn't receive a call back or response to my txt and that was mid week and now its the weekend. I'm not gonna lie it's upset me slightly and maybe it is and isn't to do with the blog, maybe he thought this girls falling for me and he got scared, or maybe he thought i was a whore and not that sweet angelic princess he always saw me as. However i do believe he will call me soon, and as much as it's upset me I'm not very worried, Mr Caring has a tendency to disappear at times so this time shouldn't be any different. So i felt like a girl in need and even though Mr educated had spoke to me and dropped the bomb shell of him going abroad for business we still were a bit funny with each other and certainly not back together. So who did i turn to Mr italiano, yes back on the scene he apologised for his absence but not to be funny i wasn't that fussed. I went other late at night watching him paint and upload some of his drawings to his website, i like to watch him paint i find it calming. We had sex it wasn't mind blowing just ok, i feel slightly awkward with him as i'm much taller then him and his frame is very small.
I like Mr italiano however i don't see this relationship growing or getting any better because i don't want it to were not like that and he is just a stop gap when i want some company. I enjoy his company and he is different however this will soon come to an end i don't think i will be that bothered when it does. However I'm sure we will remain so so friends talking now and again.
Mr nervous, awkward, 4o year old virgin, has been acting funny giving me one word answers and being non responsive, this behaviour displays confuses me so, its like i want to say to him get over it we slept together were friends have been for a few years its not the end of the world so get over it, its not like hes overtly religious for goodness sake. However he is till going on funny and to be honest i cant deal with his dodgy behaviour, I'm sure hell start talking to me again once hes got over him self lool.
I must admit i was feeling very low at the beginning of the week and got so worked up and down i drove all the way to my friends house straight after work, i just needed that comfort and to speak to someone. I ended blurting out everything that's been going on and she was very understanding and broke everything down to me, she felt my real issues was feeling rejected by Mr Caring and my break up with Mr Educated. I think she feels Mr Educated is right for me and that i just need to re kindle those feelings back with him and he needs to shake him self up and treat me better. And i do think she may be right. Low and h=behold Mr Educated turned up that night. He called me and i missed his call, when i phoned him back he said he had already left the area, however i didn't believe him and in his voice it sounded like he wanted me to tell him to turn back, which i did, and he did. I must of went through loads of different outfit changes by the time he came back, i was excited to see him, i must admit. When he eventually came we chatted like usual and drone on about something, i then began to switch off then i realised this is what i newsed to do which was very nice, so i shaked my self up and engaged in the conversation which was fine. He then mentioned our relationship which then lead on to me getting everything off my chest, i did get a little emotional however i managed to hold it together thankfully. He didn't show any emotion which is usual for him, however he did looked moved. As i was saying goodbye we hugged, then he started holding me, feeling my legs and squeezing my waist. He then kissed me longingly and didn't stop which is defo something he doesn't do. I got that shiver and tingle i newsed to get and it felt so nice to be back in his arms again. I then said goodbye and he txt me the next day to say he had landed safely which was nice so we will watch this space........
